out of control

is getting hurt
while im choosing this way

im OUT OF CONTROL!!

没心情

朋友约我今晚去夜市场
一心打算要去了
我的晚餐就特地不吃酱饱
而且还吃挺快的
因为时间已经不早了
我得快些
担心夜市场要收挡了

在打给朋友的同时
朋友说他只是说说而已
没想到我是当真的

哇考
这是什么状况？
我已经准备要去了
但朋友说只是随口说说
而待会还得载妹妹

当时的心情
就像是一棵树失去了树干
什么心情都没了
做什么事都起不劲来

我的心容易受伤
我知道我好欺负
我笨我傻我蠢

我不介意被欺负
我不介意被讽刺
我已经试着我最大的力量去容忍每一件事
我真的不想要发脾气
往往有时候我还是控制不了
我说对不起！

人总就是人
情绪的起伏是很难控制的
这一秒钟你是开心的
但不担保下一秒钟你是开心的

我的心想的与我的表现
出现了差异
我失去了控制能力
我控制不到我的所作所谓
我被我的思维所控制住

此时此刻
我真的非常没有心情
sibeh sibeh sibeh 够够力没有心情
不是开玩笑的 =(

Thursday 20/8 SkyBar Night

I with the same gang of friends outing to skybar last thursday
It was my ever first time went to SkyBar
and I'm interested to it
since my ex-colleague, Jeff had told me the ambience of skybar is so damn nice
plus I had visited their website
it's really cool environment!!

Before heading to skybar
We had movie in Pavilion 855pm with the "009" movie
This movie is damn funny
and you can laugh all the way when it is showing

After the movie is around 11pm
it's the time for our happy hour in SKYBAR!!
wohoo.. I was coming with excited mood!
Skybar is situated on top of the Trader's Hotel
and in the 33th floor

Ding.. the lift was opened and I entered slowly into the skybar
wow.. there is crowded with foreigners!!
most of them were coming with couples

I enjoyed the environment with my martini
the music was just nice
but I feel weird because I can't move my body
I was in the bar but not club, ishh!! ><

slowly we had changed our seat to few places
until we get the best seated place =)
of course captured photos in every angle

we enjoyed our night in skybar until 1am

I realized that I prefer club =)
I enjoy music with dance, but I hard to do this in pub
Perhaps I got to bring along my partner to go?
Anyway it is the nice place to enjoy as well

For my future clubbing life
currently I got to avoid from liquor for a period of time
my body is quite weak now T.T
have to rest for a period!!!

Tuesday Outing Time

I had a great time for these few days
however my cough and flu is not recover yet ;p

This tuesday
My assignment groupmates and I were treated by Amelia
The place we chose as our treating reward is "Tony Roma's" in Pavilion
Actually this restaurant is my desired one since I worked in Alstom last time
Finally I got the chance to go in and try ^^

Well
the ambience is just nice
is not very impress on me

about the foods
hmm.. I would say it is served in big portion
but the taste is not so tasty actually
I'm ordered "Ginger and Rosemary Chicken" as my lunch
it is not in good taste as I expected
first, the chicken is served in a very thick condition
second, because it is in thick condition, and the taste is not really penetrate into whole chicken

Tony Roma's is really take our life
We spent few hours on our foods before we left
The portion is really big, we were not able to finish it
left something like french fries, salad, mush potatoes...

Next, is the time heading to Lowyat for our Sing K section
We had sang from 3pm-9pm+ with only RM13.50 each
for me the time is too long
and im not able to sing, im cough!!!!

鱼 < Post by Facebook >

有人告诉我鱼的记忆只有7秒，

7秒之后它就不记得过去的事情，

一切又都变成新的。

所以在那小小的鱼缸里它永远不觉得无聊，

因为7秒一过，每一个游过的地方又变成了新的天地。

它可以永远活在新鲜中...

我宁愿是只鱼，

7秒一过就什么都忘记，

曾经碰到的人，

曾经做过的事就都可以烟消云散，

鱼看不到相爱的人流泪，

可却可以感觉到对方的心痛，

这一生，

我们都无法做只自由的鱼，

所以你也无法感觉到，

在你觉察不到我的时侯，

我的那种心痛。

正如我觉察不到你爱我一样......

爱一个可以多久？

我常问自已，

为了爱你，

我到底在失去什么，

原来，

我失去的是自已，

而更重要的是我更愿意这样继续下去，

因为我不愿没有你。

假如我是鱼，

我可以爱你7秒.......

7秒之后我又爱上了你，

就这样爱你一辈子。

用鱼的方式。

我在眨眼睛，

你呢？

在我眨眼睛的时侯，

你还好吗？

我想你了，

于是我不停的眨眼，

因为我不想让泪水流出来。

原来鱼也有思念的时候，

也有痛的感觉。

做一条鱼，

在水里多好，

可以自由的为了爱情流眼泪，

不会被看到伤痛。

我现在可以看到阳光的灿烂，

可以看到春天的明媚，

可以看到你害羞的脸。

假如有一天，

我只能看到黑暗，

我多希望，

我真的是一只鱼，

因为可以一直睁着眼睛面对你而不用担心被你看到伤悲。

我可以选择吗？

假如，

上天给我们一次做鱼的机会，

我希望，

你可以感觉到我的心痛.......

假如，

上天给我们一次做鱼的机会，

我希望，

我可以爱你8秒我想让爱变的简单，

我爱的地暗天黑都已无所谓是是非非无法抉择，

没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随那个疯狂的人是我......

Home Made Funny Video

Due to our Moral assignment, we had produced 2 funny drama during our presentation. (In BM language)

Our topic is mainly about commit suicide and euthanasia.

Below are the videos done by us, hope you all enjoy =)

Bunuh Diri Video

Euthanasia Video

Heart is missing

What's wrong with my heart?

Yesterday Jaycee had asked me a question
" I thought you haven't ready for a new relationship? "

I dumb for few seconds and recall back what had I told her
I answered " Hmm.. Yes, but human need love sometimes "

Gosh! What I think and what I do is not accordance?

I used to be alone (Sometimes)
I spend much on myself, I have no extra money spend on another party
I need caring (But not every time)
I want to couple with human, but not with phone! (Don't just sms, need to meet up)

In this cruel world
Is it the only handsome and pretty one deserve the beautiful love?
Human cares for the outlook
Human prefers the good looking one
Love starts to build up from outlook?

What do I want?
My heart is missing

I'm free

現在終于比較得空了！
好難得哦
終于我可以松一口氣了 ^^

前一鎮子真的忙得不可開交
平均一天的睡眠時間才4小時
就是爲了趕著把報告給寫完
好壓力地時刻

更有一時出現組員紛爭事件
而我卻是中間人
深感的壓力更加大

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忙忘了過後的活動
當然就是盡情玩啦！！

昨晚去了康樂夜市集
有好久一段時間沒去了
帶著還蠻期待的心情

到了那兒
我就聞到陣陣花生香
是旁邊那檔叔叔的muaji!!
它是我很愛的小食！

帶著空空的肚子去
但卻裝著滿滿回家
好滿足！

吃了：
蝦仔丸子
爆漿肉丸
最受歡迎的青龍包
中國漢堡包
台灣香腸
芋香珍珠奶茶
炸菜餅
muaji
乜都有糖水

在哪兒遇到了中學朋友
teck wah, yong sheng, yong zhou 和其他等

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今晚又是我解放的時候啦
POPPY 我來咯！
是爲了慶祝文興和愛美麗亞的生日
21嵗的他們會是很美好的
生日快樂吧！